It took a pitcher of sangria and an
imaginary series of hundred “he said, she said” conversations to finally seat
myself down and calmly reflect on the changes I desired to make in the coming
year to make the most out of every moment each day.
The last year was a huge turning point
for me at a personal level (even if those around me feel
differently). I gave up on things which were extremely close to me and looking
back at those, I think I needed a lot of courage to stand tall in front of my
decisions and stick to them every single day. Giving up on things that you have
cherished the most is not easy because even if that thing is not physically
present in your space, you still carry a part of it in you and you can never go
back to being the person you were before that experience.
This year, I am embarking on a quest to
rediscover my true self. I no longer want to feel lost. I am no longer the
person I used to be and even though I may not like this new person that I have
become, I choose to acknowledge all these parts of me as the first step towards
self-love.
In retrospect, maybe everything that
looks scary from afar is not. After all,
the past year was difficult but it was also a great learning experience from
which I came out a stronger, wiser person. All those decisions which were once
hard to take also added the extra zing to my being. I no longer need a veil to
stand amidst a crowd.
I want 2016 to be the year of change. I
wish to make decisions that will keep me happy in the long run. Hopefully, by
the end of this year, I will have more reasons to be grateful than I currently
have.
Everyone tells us that change is good.
But nobody tells us what happens after we decide to take it up and make change
the way of life. This year, I am choosing to embrace change.
Let’s hope my list of things to be happy
about multiplies in 365 days! *fingers crossed*
