Wednesday, 15 January 2014

The Pedestal

In her eyes, he was the complete embodiment of perfection. He could never make mistakes. She saw him in this glowing light from the very first time they had met. The thought of him was enough to make her smile and being around him always filled her heart with a nice, warm, fuzzy feeling. These days, however, things weren’t quite the same. She felt lonely and hurt. She just could not understand his actions. She knew something was wrong with her because everything was right with him. Why was she so flawed? What could she do to be as perfect as him? Her inadequacies and faults frustrated her.

He could see the hurt in her eyes. He wished he could ease her pain. But he felt completely helpless. He remembered the first time they had met – she used to always have a merry twinkle in her eyes and her chirpy voice always lightened everyone’s moods. He wished he could restore her old self but he did not have the skills. Repairing people and bringing out the best in them was her gift.  Even if he desired, there was nothing he could do to fix things. He wondered what had gone wrong. Why was she not able to be the paramount version of herself?

She had put him on a high pedestal. Thus, she had given up her power and started believing that she was just not good enough. Whenever she thought of him, only his good qualities dominated the foreground of her perception. He just did not seem to possess any negative qualities. Trouble had started brewing for her the moment external circumstances tried showing her that this state of grace was just a temporary phase. She was not ready to let go off her beliefs.

He was also not in a good place. As long as she continued to believe in her own projection, she could never see him as a person who also had flaws and issues. Initially, he had enjoyed seeing himself as perfect through her eyes but he kept wishing that she had not believed in that illusion. By entertaining the illusion that he was perfect, she had deprived him of the space to be human. He always had to think a million times before acting. Yet there were quite a few times that he had slipped. Each time he made an error in judgment or acted in contradiction to her idea of perfection, he could see her closing up and distancing herself from him. She did not want to become disillusioned. The very thought made her so angry!

She knew he was not to blame for the fact that she idealized him. She wished she could just accept that no one is perfect – we are all a combination of human and divine qualities and each day, we struggle to maintain a balance. The more she filled her head with this idea, the easier it became for her to love him with this new-found awareness. She saw that by embracing this idea, she was actually allowing herself for a greater intimacy than when she had held him aloft an airy throne. The moment she could see through her idealized projection was the moment she began to see him as he truly was.

He looked at her and was amazed to see the transformation. After a long time, he felt truly connected to her. They walked on equal grounds together holding hands. Finally they had realized that in life, there are no pedestals. They owned their own divinity as well as their humanity. They had finally discovered the key to balance and wholeness within themselves and their relationship. They were finally at peace.

34 comments:

  1. The question in my mind is, Did she really see through the projection? Or Did she go back to feeling that she wasn't good enough?

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    1. It's open to interpretation :-) You are the reader; you can choose to believe whatever you wish!

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  2. I loved the simplicity yet the complexity that this whole thing had woven around it... touching!

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  3. The posts just keep getting better and better.. Awesome one.

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  4. Its wonderful how a simple emotion can lead to such complexities.
    Great writeup.
    p.s- Just a general advice, Kindly think about changing the starry background. Makes reading a bit difficult.

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    1. Thanks :-) I will try changing the font next time to make reading easy :-)

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  5. I love how you always reflect emotions so perfectly ... brilliant :-)

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  6. You really know what is playing in a person's mind. perfection is a myth, yet we never give up hoping for a perfect life.Nicely done Divya!!

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    1. Thanks so much Reshma! Perfection exists - "perfection" is being your best self despite the presence of your flaws :-)

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  7. Nicely written post, Divya! :)

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  8. Very true!!! If we can accept someone with their imperfections we accept them totally. The trouble is when we think of them as people larger than life on pedastals! Good piece Divya!

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  9. Wonderfully written. Yes, idealizing people way too much has more cons than we can imagine. It is the imperfections that make people perfect. It is accepting others with their own vices and virtues, that makes a happy relationship.

    Totally loved your writing style. This has surely got to be one of your best posts :-)

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    1. Thank you so much Ashwini for that compliment :-) It sure made my day *wink* Hope I can match up to this level in my future posts as well :-D

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  10. beautiful written divya.. keep it uo nd keep updating d blog...:)

    nd btw..u knw.. i tried hard to find u on fb...:P but coudnt..:( i appreciate ur writings n i just want be in touch with u as a frnd...

    wat cn i do fr dis? :(

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    1. Thanks - you may follow me on Twitter @DivyaDazzles

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  11. sorry but m not on twitter... i shall follow u on fb.. if u cn provide me ur profile link plz?

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  12. I am afraid I am not on Facebook - we can correspond on email if you wish :-)

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  13. ohh! so u're not on Facebook.?

    i guess dis too is ur comment : Twitter isn't
    something I find very
    addictive but yes I
    prefer it to Facebook
    these days...in fact,
    Candy Crush is the
    sole reason why I am
    on Facebook :-P

    if u dnt want to disclose ur Fb identity to me..u cn tell me straight away dear.

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    1. While I don't need to explain myself to an Anonymous anyone, since you're so persistent: I do have Blogger friends on my Facebook profile & it's quite easy to locate me but if you haven't been able to, it's only because at the moment, my account stands deactivated. Enjoying a Facebook detox for a while and completely enjoying the experience :-)

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  14. Its Wonderful post.
    The "she" or the girl in ur story is some what like u
    Divya bua..She has the same mood of fun when u are around anyone and u have the power to take out the best from pple. (somewhat as I think - Cause u are the one to bring smiles on faces with ur rich narrations of story telling.)

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  15. Divya : Just because i am commenting here as an Anonymous doesn't mean i have no identity. You never know to whom you are talking right now. I'm here that simply means i am one of d follower of your writings. And i am not persisting dear. it's u said u don't use Facebook and i'd seen your another comment somewhere so was just showing you the contradiction of yours. And if you have deactivated your account still you could give me your profile link atleast so i can contact you later sometime.

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    1. Why don't you contact me on email? Once my Facebook account is activated, you would get the link that time!

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  16. No ! instead i would like to wait then.

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  17. waited enough naa... nd hopefully ab toh accnt bi activate kr liya hoga tmne...if it was not an excuse for just not to make me contact to u on fb..:(

    anyway.. now will u give me ur fb cntct please?

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    1. My account is still deactivated and if you knew me well enough or have been reading my space, you should know I don't make excuses :-) If I did not want you adding me on Facebook, I would have told you directly! Besides, why would I have issues? There are other Blogger friends who were in touch through Facebook when my account existed - if I had no issues with them being on my Facebook friend-list, you wouldn't really have been an exception!

      Cheers!

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