She had always been a hoarder. Her house
was perpetually in a state of mess. Clothes that hadn't been worn for several
years spilled themselves out every time someone braved an attempt to open the
wardrobe doors. Her purses were
cluttered with used rail-passes, movie-tickets and her wallets still contained
credit cards well past their expiry dates. She never discarded anything. Things
that were of no value to people were memory imprints for her. She did not
consider it junk. It was, for her, a treasure-chest of memories. She stared at
the house. Everything was still in its place. Despite the disorder, she still
knew where each object was. She never had trouble finding anything.
She sniffed the empty perfume-bottle on
her dresser. It still had traces of the fragrance it had stored. She opened one
of the drawers and found a broken pendant. It was possible to get the lock fixed
but she knew she would never wear it again. It wasn't in her nature to wear an
ornament symbolizing broken relationships. Neither could she bring herself to
throw the locket away or gift it to somebody else. Suddenly her phone rang and
distracted her thoughts. She glanced at the name on the screen. Her cheeks
flushed red with anger and her eyes blinked rapidly to stop the tears from
streaming. She took a deep breath and, mustering all her strength, answered the
call. The conversation lasted more than fifteen minutes. Not once during the
conversation did she give the caller any hint of her state of mind. She did not
know how to tell people she was upset with them. She hung up and sat on her
bed. Tears flooded her face and this time she let them flow. She was tired of
this act. She could not play this part any longer.
She looked around one last time. She knew
she was not coming back. Earlier, even for a week-long trip, she would pack two
suitcases. This time she was leaving empty-handed. As she stepped out to lock
the door, she heard her phone ringing inside. For a fleeting moment, she almost
went back inside to answer the call but she stopped herself just in time. She
could not allow herself to fall into the tempting trap once again. Leaving had
never been easy for her especially when she knew she had unfinished business.
Leaving without saying a good-bye was even more difficult. However, she had resolved
to let go off all the things she feared losing. This was her first step in that
direction; and like most first steps are, this was the hardest one to take.
She handed the key to the landlord. The path
ahead wasn't simple. She did not know where she was headed. All she knew was
that there would be no looking back. She could feel the rush of freedom
trickling down her veins as she marched along this road of new adventures,
finally, taking charge of her own life.
:) There are moments each of us feels like doing this. I can so relate to her.
ReplyDeleteJitu
:-) :-)
DeleteLove, love, love <3
ReplyDeleteWhat do you love, love and love?
DeleteTouching!
ReplyDeleteThanks Namrata!
Deleteah, I like this!The woman in charge of her own destiny,!
ReplyDeleteDint get it...she was leaving her past behind? Why did she leave her stuff for the landlord? :O
ReplyDeleteIn essence, she left all her baggage behind:-)
DeleteIt can feel sad...but then it's all for the good.
ReplyDeleteTrue! You just don't believe it while the chaos is happening...
DeleteBreaking free is always difficult, Divya:) Well Written!
ReplyDeleteThanks Rahul!
DeleteHow wonderful to see you writing at top peak serving only to hone your excellent writing skills even more. Keep on writing, Divya. Maybe some day I'll be buying your book. :-) Who knows?! It's a world of wonderful surprises.
ReplyDeleteTake care. Best of blessings to you and your family.
Ah! I wish that day comes soon (if at all)! Thank you for dropping by and for your lovely comments!
DeleteGod Bless You!
Beautiful,, loved the narration. A perfect post which any woman could relate too
ReplyDeleteThank You! :-) :-)
DeleteIt is not easy to leave your past behind, it sneaks into your thoughts and your response to situations in strange ways. A change of place however does help you move on better. Nicely written Divya :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Reshma :-) Hope all's well with you!
DeleteOh yes, life is warmer cos it is spring now :) Do drop by my blog sometime.
Delete:-) Of course!
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