Sunday, 3 March 2013

Free Association


The alarm rings and I reach to hit the ‘Snooze’ button with a big groan. The extra five minutes of sleep are not really enough to arm me to wake up and face the world. Nevertheless, I put my feet on the ground and get out of bed. This is probably the only time of the day when you can proclaim, with assured guarantee, that I will not be having a smile on my face.

I brush my teeth and switch on the geyser. In the mornings, I feel too lazy to bathe and I try dawdling as much as I can. I grab the newspaper and amuse myself by reading just one particular column and some comic strips – yes, that is all I read! Don’t let the quantity of two newspapers delivered at my door-step every morning, with all the supplements, deceive you!

I switch on my laptop and visit Facebook. I like this book of faces. I like playing games with some of these faces. I like spying on some of these faces. I like the Facebook memes. I like the Facebook Likes! I am glad that Facebook allows me to “share”. Believe me, I am a very generous person!

I realize I can procrastinate no more. I push myself to get ready. Fifteen minutes is all it takes. I leave the house looking the best I can with my clothes, accessories, and the theme of my Windows Phone, all, colour-coordinated and matching. If you find it hard to believe that all this can be achieved in such a short while, I’m afraid that is your problem!

 It’s just a two-minute walk from my house to the station but it takes me longer. I like to look at the people I pass. My thoughts seem to wander instead of focusing on the road. Even though I take the same road, I always find new things to wonder about. The railway platform is just as fascinating and even more colourful. Most people hate the train journeys in Mumbai. I do not mind. I like travelling. It helps me know the world. It helps me know myself. More importantly, it allows me to Tweet, check-in, update my status, and, basically, tell the world what I am doing now!

On some occasions, a sudden text from an unexpected loved one lifts up my spirits. Not that my spirit needs any kind of lifting…On most days, I am way too high on happiness for my own good! But then, what is life without love? It’s like watching The Big Bang Theory without Sheldon (or Dr. Sheldon Cooper, as he likes to be called)…And The Big Bang Theory without Sheldon is like…well, nothing! Ironically, the Big Bang Theory states that out of nothing, everything was formed…but then, let us not distract ourselves with these sudden diversions of thoughts…

What? You are finding it hard to see where I am going with this post? How does it matter? Is it always necessary to know one’s destination when one ventures out on a journey? Sometimes, it’ll be nice if we just allow ourselves to flow. Allow your thoughts to flow. Why does one always insist on connections? Are you and I connected? Despite technology’s repeated attempts at making us believe otherwise, tell me, honestly, are you truly connected with anyone?

If you were here for the first time, by now, you will know that I talk a lot. If you’ve been here before, you could say that I’ve, probably, started talking even more. “These are all your perceptions! I don’t really care about the world!” is what I usually declare except that it isn’t always true. Inside, I am still screaming, tattered and crushed about the fact that I was judged, and perhaps, wrongly. But it’s a cruel world and I am a brave girl. The smile on my face defeats all your attacks. This smile on my face will never fade; and trust me when I tell you that; I am not someone who will be caught unaware. I completely believe in taking things at face-value even if that attitude goes against my profession. Looks can be deceiving but I really enjoy the game – you deceive me and I will deceive you. In the end, we are all just deceiving our own selves. There is no ‘you’ just like there is no ‘I’.

As you can see by now, this rant can go on endlessly. However, I shall have mercy on your soul and put an end to this jibber-jabber now. Feel free to “like” or make your presence felt in any other way; you also have the choice to meander to other spaces in the virtual world, pretending as if you were never here. Life is still beautiful.  

21 comments:

  1. LOL!

    I was here.. and I choose to let you know that.

    What I do not choose, is to let you peek into what I thought while reading this.

    So keep guessing... that is... if you even wish to guess. :)

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    1. Oh! And btw...

      I was smiling while reading this.

      And no... I'm not giving you the credit.;) I merely suffer from a obsessive compulsive urge to smile. ;) :P

      :D :D :D

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    2. I am extremely bad at guessing so I'd like it if you told me who you are :)

      Glad to meet someone else like me who also has an obsessive-compulsive urge to smile :D :D :D

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  2. Jibber habber? Not at all. Your post is full of positive energy, keep ranting and make everyone smile. :)

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  3. :-))) disconnected thoughts do connect at some points..have you let your thoughts wander and then after a point work backwards, join the dots and trace the way back to where you began?
    My guess is you must have :-) keep smiling...:-)

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    1. Ah yes I have done that a couple of times :) It's funny how one thing leads to something else and then the place where you end up is nowhere close to where you began the process :) It is beautiful! :)

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  4. Yeah! <3
    The journey itself being the destination.... can we stop now for sharing chaai and samosaas?
    :-D

    Love!

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    1. Ha!Ha! Sure :) The wonderful part of each journey is that you can make as many pit-stops as you desire!! Why the hurry to reach a destination?

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  5. Wo ... this was fun to read ... analysis of life, and more :-)

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    1. Ha!Ha! Thanks :) :) I always ensure that on weekends you get something fun to read ;)

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  6. Hey you've thrown a lot of points at us, your readers. If this was to vent something, hope you are feeling better and smiling. Totally understand the disconnectedness part of our lives and interactions. Where's the like button here?:)

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    1. Consciously, the purpose was not to vent but then, writing is always some form of venting and expressing, isn't it?

      Ha!Ha! I think I disabled the "like" button on Blogger a few posts before but people on my Facebook list can directly "like" this one :)

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  7. Exactly my schedule every morning before the train part begins... ;)
    BTW its good that you talk a lot...coz sometimes its necessary to chat more even for those who themselves talk less... ;)
    keep scribbling...God bless u... :)

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    1. :) Lol! I don't know how good you will feel about me talking a lot if you are actually in front of me :P At that time, you'll probably be praying for me to shut up!!

      Thanks for stopping by!

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  8. Your posts bring out your free spirit so well Divya. I have said this many times bit am forced to say it again - refreshing read!

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  9. If our mind were to stay fixed on a particular thing,how would we get to experience new and funny and not so funny happenings to us and those around us...Its good to go jibber-jabber than keep a stone face...enjoyed wandering here as always:)

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    1. Ha!Ha! So true :) :) It's better to be a dreamer than a robot fixated at one task at hand! Do allow your thoughts to continue wandering here :D

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  10. Loved reading this post :)

    As it brought a smile on my face

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